I’ve been a little quieter on the personal side for a while, but as I step into a new season, I wanted to bring you along more honestly, just like the good ol’ days.
You may have heard the rumblings of the last year. Not only was it, astrologically, the end of a 9 year cycle. But it also lined up with the year of the snake in the Chinese calendar. If I am speaking a foreign language, this really just means that it was a year of massive “shedding” across the board. Lots of big final life lessons, a lot of loss, and letting go of stories that no longer serve us.
Whether you believe in these things or not, I feel pretty confident that many of us were in and out of the trenches last year. My circle was, for sure!
For me, last year was a roller coaster. It began with one of my clients letting me go… something that had never happened before. Though it was the kindest “firing,” with absolutely zero drama (it just wasn’t the right fit for either of us and absolutely for the best), it still really shook me. Being rejected, being in “conflict,” fears about money and worthiness… all the things that I thought I had overcome, but realized very quickly are very much still there.
From there, things were quite slow. I had just enough work to keep me afloat, but with a lighter load, paired with my daughter starting kindergarten, I found myself with a lot more time on my hands than I was used to.
Early summer, I onboarded one of the biggest and most exciting projects of my career so far. But then it started and stalled a handful of times for various reasons that were out of my control (it should be picking up once again soon though, and I am still very excited about it. So many ideas have been marinating!) But the temporary pauses also meant I couldn’t take on too much more as I waited for things to pick back up.
Of course, I worried off and on (the roller coaster of 2025, I tell you!), but I am of the firm belief that things happen for us, not to us, and I really leaned into that.
I knew that everything was happening for a reason. And looking back, I desperately needed the pause. The time to evaluate my relationship between my productivity and my worthiness. To move much (MUCH) slower and help recalibrate my nervous system. To learn to lean on my husband a little more – a deep realization that I’m not alone, which was so healing all on its own. To spend a ton of quality time with our dog, whom we lost incredibly unexpectedly, and far too soon.
It has been a bit of a wild ride, I tell you, but I’m already feeling major shifts. I’m really excited for what’s next. My goal is to step into a season where I create from steadiness, not survival.
Thanks for being here through it all – I’m both nervous and excited to see how things unfold. And I’m looking forward to sharing the journey as it does <3